Philippians 3:13 says: Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before. 14: I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
I have learned a very valuable lesson. I have known for years that I needed to learn this, but now it is of utmost important to grasp. I am a person who is easily hurt, very over-sensitive to every word that comes into my ears from others, or even into my head from my own voice. I have been told negative things and allowed myself to live in a very negative atmosphere. I believed every word that was said to me: you are stupid, nobody loves you, nobody cares for you, you don’t know how to worship God the right way. I have clung to those words and claimed them for myself.
Well, guess what my friend. I am not stupid, there are people that love me and cares for me. Even if no person on this entire world didn’t care about me, it is vital for me to grasp the notion that God cares for me, God loves me. The simple fact that I have the deep desire in my heart to worship God at all is worshipping Him in the right way, because He put that desire in my heart.
I am a child of God. I am precious to Him. I am important to Him. I want to worship and praise Him all the days of my life. The moment I turn my eyes from God to any human being is the day I will fall; I will be disappointed; I will lose track of my purpose here in this life. This life is precious, and it should be spent worshipping Him and praising Him. I know that when I do that, everything else will fall beautifully in place. Even if it looks as if the sky is falling, and all my friends and family turn their backs on me, I must look forward, not hold grudges, not keep hurts from human people close to my chest, but to go forward with the greatest of joy, because He is always there for me.
This has been a very hard and humiliating lesson for me to learn. I think I finally understand. Thank you my Lord for teaching me.
